And then I found out

that Starkey's pastor was mudered.

ABILENE, TX - Renata Monet had been planning the murder of her church pastor, Karen Lee Johnson, for quite some time, according to Sgt. Lynn Beard of the Abilene Police Department.

The gruesome murder-suicide took place exactly one year after Bob Laloge changed his name to Renata Antoinette Monet.

Late Friday afternoon, Johnson, pastor of Abilene's Unity Church, went to Monet's house to minister to her. Upon entering the house, Johnson was attacked, subdued, and murdered.

Investigators are still working to process Monet's personal writings which contain details of what was to happen.

"It was clearly premeditated to happen on this day (January 22, 2010) for some time," Beard said.

According to her online journal, Monet had fantasized about torturing women since the age of 10.

Johnson's cause of death has been released as a knife to the throat, in addition to multiple stab wounds, but the actual details of the murder will never be released, out of respect for both families, Beard said. Giving the public a step-by-step time line of what happened won't accomplish anything, he explained.

Monet's ultimate cause of death was hanging, according to police.

And it shocks me.

I don't know what to say. She ran crying from the room when Dr. Dorothy mentioned it as a prayer request at the beginning of band. Once again I find myself confronted by the horror and violence of the world, and I recoil, horrified, not knowing how to handle a world where something like this can happen. Pray for the church and the families involved; I'm not sure how prayer works, but I think it does something. Now is the time when we all have to comfort one another.