And then I rambled in a feminist theological strain for a bit.

And other times I really wonder –

that maybe God set me up with an atheist
who doesn't believe in that damned accursèd “complementarianism”
so I could have a space to run around and be free for him.

(and it strikes me as odd that so many men “confessed”
to the sin of not leading in the church –
and the women applauded them?

there's something mighty fucked up about that,
well-intentioned or not.

I think it's the damned accursèd “complementarianism” again.)

My beloved, at least, does not theologically justify
my “submission” to his “will” as my “head” –
(“So what if God told you to go to Africa and Aaron forbid you?
You're supposed to obey your husband.”
Uh … I'd end up in Africa whether Aaron or I liked it or not?)
and funny how in that damned accursèd Complementarianism
the woman always completes the man, and
never vice versa.

(Maybe the man is inferior because his penis is an overgrown clitoris.
Eat that, jerks.)

In any event –

… sometimes I wonder if God set me up with an atheist
so that my beloved would never try to clip my wings
with the words of freedom that I used to spread them.






[And that's what happened after reading a buttload of feminist theology. =P]

And then I found out

that Starkey's pastor was mudered.

ABILENE, TX - Renata Monet had been planning the murder of her church pastor, Karen Lee Johnson, for quite some time, according to Sgt. Lynn Beard of the Abilene Police Department.

The gruesome murder-suicide took place exactly one year after Bob Laloge changed his name to Renata Antoinette Monet.

Late Friday afternoon, Johnson, pastor of Abilene's Unity Church, went to Monet's house to minister to her. Upon entering the house, Johnson was attacked, subdued, and murdered.

Investigators are still working to process Monet's personal writings which contain details of what was to happen.

"It was clearly premeditated to happen on this day (January 22, 2010) for some time," Beard said.

According to her online journal, Monet had fantasized about torturing women since the age of 10.

Johnson's cause of death has been released as a knife to the throat, in addition to multiple stab wounds, but the actual details of the murder will never be released, out of respect for both families, Beard said. Giving the public a step-by-step time line of what happened won't accomplish anything, he explained.

Monet's ultimate cause of death was hanging, according to police.

And it shocks me.

I don't know what to say. She ran crying from the room when Dr. Dorothy mentioned it as a prayer request at the beginning of band. Once again I find myself confronted by the horror and violence of the world, and I recoil, horrified, not knowing how to handle a world where something like this can happen. Pray for the church and the families involved; I'm not sure how prayer works, but I think it does something. Now is the time when we all have to comfort one another.