I miss Aaron. =(

It's only been a week since the last time I saw him, but I miss him so much that my heart physically hurts. My memories have become three-dimensional (I don't know how to explain that other than I miss him so much that my memories have taken on a real quality; it's unusual). Since Friday I've felt like I would go absolutely crazy if I didn't see him the next day, but that doesn't change the fact that I won't get to see him until June 23 or 24 at the absolute earliest (that's assuming that they don't get any extra dates and go ahead and come back). Somehow I manage to keep going. I was looking at all the pictures of him in my phone last night, and I was almost floored by the fact that he exists in real life, not just the phone. I miss him so much. =( I can't watch couples; it hurts too much. All I can think about is Aaron. I have become, even more than I already was, unsympathetic to other people's relationship problems in my own head, because I'm like ... "oh no, you only get to see your boyfriend twice a week? I won't get to see mine for a month." And it's not like I can go visit him. He's in a different place every day. =( I wish that I could've gone, but I know that I couldn't have, but what's really unfair to me is that April got to go on tour and I didn't. Because the number-one reason I planned on not being able to go anyway was because no girlfriends were supposed to be allowed. Oops. Funny how that works out. But at least Aaron's having a good time, and I'm happy for him; I just wish that I was there with him ... =(